As I settled into my new life, I found time long. And lonely. After we married, our honeymoon was one night in a hotel, and then my husband left for a six week course for work. He was only home on weekends. My brother and sisters tried to pop by to spend time, but they had their life. With no car, I filled my time with cleaning, preparing for the baby, watching soaps like The Young and the Restless…
After my baby girl was born, I had a real live living doll. I still spent alot of time alone because my husbands profession took him away alot, and he worked shift work. So between working, working overtime for the extra money and courses, I didn´t see him alot. But now I had this perfect little baby girl, and we were inseparable.
Although I couldn´t pursue music at the level I wanted to anymore, I still wrote.
Two years later, I had another baby girl. She was also perfect. My plans to become a famous singer/songwriter was going to have to wait. But I still wrote. And sang. My children will often comment about how they fell asleep to my singing.
Although at times I became frustrated and depressed about not being able to pursue my goals, I would never have altered the plans of the Universe. I had to believe that everything happens for a reason. Once they were in school, I could once again pursue my musical dreams. I was still young, and I could write and plan during the day when they were in school, and the evenings that my husband was at home, I could perhaps record my songs and perform.